1 Corinthians 13:12 (The Message)
We don’t yet see things clearly. We’re squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won’t be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We’ll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!
I find it hard to not know the whole plan. I like to lay out the details of what's coming, put items on my calendar, make to-do lists. A well planned day has all the places I'm going, the times to be there and the travel times, who I am meeting and what we are the goals of each meeting. In Myers-Briggs language, I am about as "J" as a person can be.
The Poor People's Campaign is, according to Myers-Briggs, a "P". P is for possibility and the campaign is all about that. We will possibly find out more, we will possibly have a meeting, perhaps at this location, perhaps at this other. Its all a fog, I am peering through a mist. To be honest its exactly what I don't like about God--God seems to wait until the last minute to make decisions, and rarely tells me the plan.
So I go to meetings, more, probably, than I need to, because I'm hoping I'll find out additional information, I go to meetings and sit telling myself to be patient. Telling myself it won't be long before the campaign will be as clear to me as it is to God. In six weeks it will be over and I will know what happened. In just a few days I'll have been to one Rally and one Action and I'll know how it goes.
In some ways, this is the lament of a person who is used to being in charge. As an ordained white person with organizational skills, I often get to tell other people where to go, and what to do when they get there. But for this campaign, I am determined to learn how to follow. And to follow without spending the whole time telling the leaders that they should do it differently.
So I'll show up at the common at 10 in order to be in time for a meeting that is at 10 or 11 or 12. And I'll check-in at two locations, they are not that far apart. I'll risk that I'll be late to one meeting or another. I'm going to trust that God is in that fog.
I'll show up. I trust that God will show up, too.
Prayer: Holy One, creator of time, give me the skills to sit with unknown time. Give me the patience to wait. Guide me in the work of faithful following. Amen.
For my organized thoughts, see my book Five Loaves, Two Fish, Twelve Volunteers: Developing Relational Food Ministries. In this spot are thoughts that appear for a moment--about food programs, mission, church, building community, writing, and whatever else pops into my head.